it's suicide or teach me

Question

I've lost everything that has ever mattered to me and I've always worked hard to just end up with nothing. This time I'm done and have nothing left to lose. So I'm trying to find a way I can commit suicide but I can't do it.  I can't pull the trigger I can't step off this chair I can't leave my dog alone. Pathetic I know but it's my reality. I've been a addicy all my life and can't quit can't kill myself can't be around anymore so I'll ask one last time for anyone to help me either get well of enough to buy a piece of property off grid or enough drugs to sell large amounts anything to pay *****support so maybe one day my sons would contact me. Teach me to hack teach me what I need to want to live. I know Noone will ever respond to help me but I just wanted to try and ask for help. One last time. I figure by tomorrow I'll find somewhere to park where I can carbon monoxide myself. I can do that I hope. I don't even have enough gas to make it anywhere. I'm way up in the woods in Idaho Montana border if anyone has any ideas besides keep doing things legally I'm willing to hear. ***Contact info is only allowed at user's wall*** is my email or 208-603-1302 is my cell it gets shut off soon so I'll be checking out tomorrow. So whom ever sees this is probably the last who will ever know what happened to me. *****bits a crazy story what got me here so help me write a number one best seller so long

Answer 1

Contacted you. Just reply me.

Answer 2

It's been a while since you posted this. I hope you are still alive and have found some peace.