I don't know if you're still around but I hope you didn't kill yourself. I don't know what your going through but whatever it is I do know you can get through it. Suicide is the worst choice you can make unless it is self-sacrifice for others. The best thing you can do is just keep living. I promise you that everything will get better eventually. You just need to give it enough time and you need to put in the effort to make your life better. At the very least try to rethink this. There will always be a better option than suicide. Even if everything seems hopeless now and it feels like there is nobody there for you the only thing you can do is be there for yourself. As long as you got yourself you can get through any emotion your brain tries to throw at you. It will take time but it will be worth it. And with everything else in life the feelings that are making you think this way will pass. You will get better, you will find new people, you will find solutions whatever those may be, you will have love and friendship, and most importantly you will have happiness. Just wait it out, you will prevail from this battle and if it means anything I wish the best for you and anyone in this situation.