Hello,
I've been planning my suicide for some time now, and I am really ashamed of my urges to kill myself, as I can only imagine the pain this selfish act will inflict on the people that care about me. I've been thinking a lot about the way I want to go, and specifically trying to minimize the possibility to stop midway and keep the scene as "clean" as possible. For example jumping off a building has no possibility to revert the act mid jump, but would be way too traumatic for innocent bystanders and my loved ones. I know killing myself is selfish regardless of the method, but I want to try to think about other people's pain too. A few months ago I came up with the idea to strangle myself with a zip tie around the neck. Zip ties are impossible to undo without pliers, and I hope it would be a painless peaceful way to die.
A zip tie pressing on the trachea is really painful, so on the zip tie I would be taping two lumps of something in spots that land on both sides of my trachea, with the intention that the pressure is focused on the two carotid arteries. It's quite easy to press on the arteries with your thumbs, and cause a momentary loss of consciousness without really any pain. If this was induced by a zip tie around your neck instead of your thumbs, the arteries would stay shut even after losing consciousness and that I hope would lead to death. I guess my worst fear is that the arteries are not blocked entirely which would leave me conscious which could in the worst case lead to regret and survival.
I have no medical knowledge if this is actually how it works, but according to what I could google this is the best method I know of so far. I wanted to come over here to check if anyone had experience or expertise around a suicide method like this, and ask does this sound like a good plan?