i know you said dont try to talk me out of it , but think of this , the pain of your family , ***** , friends , there isnt a painless method , you will feel pain unless you die old no doubt about it , but dont do this shit man , its petty , your family brought you and raised you in this world and your just going to *****ing end it over what , a bit of petty sadness , its called not enough dopamine , go do shit you love , go ***** a hot chick in a club whilst being *****ed off your tits , that my friend will bring you happiness